Subtle changes, big doin's...

I find I am so careless with my words and often times do not even realize the power that is in what I say. Lately there have been some confirmation of this fact to me. Without a lot of detail I have been doing a lot of drifting over the past few years. Circumstances have got the best of me and I quietly have drifted into my complacent little fog just floating through life. In those places of life it has become very easy to become bitter, back bite and allow my useless non God glorifying vocabulary to slide its way back in. Not fun...

Yet as of late God has been restoring me to a place where He is back on the throne and where His will is more important than personal preference or desires. In this place I am noticing that God's Word has become part of my conversation again. God's work is flowing off of my lips with a renewed boldness and confidence once again.

Once this process happens the words that have come out of my mouth have seemingly opened up doors for those around me to have some change in their lives. Am I saying that I am saving people? Not at all. What I am saying is that I am getting God back where He needs to be in my life, His Word thus flows more freely and the power in that is hitting people which results in his "overwhelming", awesome work in the lives of those around who recieve His Word. Needless to say, it is so cool to be reminded that God can use a wretch like me. Awesome!!!

So here is the question: How do we use our words? Do we tear people apart or do we build people up and speak God's Words over them? One of my favorite thoughts in the scriptures is when an Old Testament figure was called by God and annointed to do the Lord's work, one of the statements about him was that "his words did not fall to the ground". Do we waste our words on senseless thoughts and violent attacks towards our brothers and sisters or do we love as Jesus loved and restore lives with how we speak to and over people?

Just what's on my mind lately.
Peace

Have you ever been at a place where you are thankful for an opportunity that God has provided and yet feel compelled that the reason He got you there was for a bigger picture? This is where I am. I am grateful for work, community, my fiance and my consistency with seeing my son. Yet while all of this is happening I have a stirring in my spirit that there is a greater thing happening here. I am not sure what it is, but it seems that I follow the Will of God this will increase that which is already good to level of better goodness. I could be wrong, but it seems that for those serving the Lord that "Good is not good enough". I am no longer content with surviving and keeping my head above water. I want to thrive and walk on water.

Have ya been there? Are you there now? Here is my question and I would love some insight on this one. How do you focus on today when the bigger picture seems to be on its way? Thanks ya'll... God bless....

Restoration

So I suppose it is appropriate to say the typical "wow, it's been a while!" comment... There it was!

So this will be a super quick update as I need to work my way back into this whole blog thing again. As has happened to many, Facebook apparently has eaten my Blogger.

Here is my thought and I apologize to Kirk Perry for having a serious post, but that is how I roll this time.

So my mother has prayed for me many times regarding God restoring "what the locusts have taken away". I don't remember where that Scripture was referenced, but it has been something that I have been hoping for for a while. To make a long story short, I think I am beginning to see some part of that happening in my life.

This Christmas will be the first that I am going to be looking forward to in a long, long time. On Boxing Day I will be spending Christmas with my family, my son, and my girlfriend. God is clearly getting things in line for me during this season and though things are tough in other areas, I see how He is making things right when everything seemed to be going so wrong.

If you read this and can relate, hang in there. God is good!

blowouts, delays and drunks, oh my...

so we had a fun night... as the case is with anything there was some adventure... keep in mind that this trip consisted of sidneys first train ride and NBA game... i think i saw sid go shy for the first time ever... as we were standing by the raptors entryway jose calderone came walking by and i urged sid to holler at him so i could get a picture with the two of them, but he clammed up... i have never seen that before and if you know or have met sid, you are surprised as well...

ADVENTURE #1:
sid and i were sitting in nearly the back row of the fleet center a very outspoken gentleman came up behind us and began slurring what sounded like explitives... then he grabbed sid's shoulders and said "i love this @#*%*#@ seat... go blankity blank celtics go!!! beat the blankity blank raptors!!!" so sid being sid started a conversation with him... i heard it said from someone that sid makes the world a better place and this was perhaps another example whether it was going to make a difference or not... long story short, the owners of the seat showed up and the gentlemen left with much grumbling, swinging and cussing...

ADVENTURE #2:
sid's poor raptors got blown out of the water... it was sad... they literally did not stand a chance... (2 best players were injured)

ADVENTURE #3:
on sid's first return train trip back to portland, we were informed that it was delayed by one half of an hour resulting in our 2.5 hour train ride leaving boston at 11:40 instead of 11:10... late night to say the least...


all in all i would say that it was a fun day despite the (mis)adventures that we had...

Thank you Lord for your protection as we travelled!!!

On life support, but still barely tickin'...

The title is basically where my blog is. It is not dead, but active it is not either. Apparently the only time I am willing to post is when I visit my mother's place in Maine. Perhaps more visit's are in order. This post will be very simple because I am very tired and need to go to bed now. So here goes my amazing nugget of wisdom. I am very excited because I have Sidney with me and tommorrow we will be going to watch the Boston Celtics play against the Toronto Raptors in Boston. Needless to say I am stoked eh. (Authentic surfer and Canadian slang all in one sentence.) I am pumped because the last time I saw an NBA game was in Harbour Station and there was not a lot of effort displayed since it was a preseason game. So officially this is my 1st real NBA game where people should actually be trying. I am also mostly pumped because Sid's fave team is the Raptors and this is his 1st NBA game. Exciting times, exciting times. If I can figure it out there should be pics to come soon. Be blessed ya'll!!!

It's Alive!!!!!

It is amazing, yet incredibly frustrating how one can fight the same battles over a long period of time and often never feel like there has been any progress made. At the same time too it is odd that there are days where one can say without any visual evidence that there is victory and the struggles (be it personal or outside type of stuff) will soon pass. This is what I often find with my walk with God. Somedays it just comes so naturally to walk with the Lord and be confident of what I know to be true. Then there are other days when it ain't so easy to believe. I suppose this is a natural part of being human, but does it have to be? I think I may know the answer to that already.

Anyway, I just wanted to put a small post here so that I could be deemed alive again. Plus it might be good to finish the whole 40 days of praise thing. Time to just suck it up and be thankful regardless of my circumstances and my shortcomings.

Lot's of stuff has happened since the last post and strangely enough there is a lot that is still the same. I will update and try to do some funny stuff along the way as I feel inspired and become alive to the blogger life again.


Praise note: Thank you so much God for protecting my mother in her accident. From our human perspective there is a lot that should have happened and yet she was pretty much unscathed. Thank You BIG!!!

How Facebook ate my blog...

Insane... it is odd how new things come along and other things just seem to fade away... things are always moving i suppose... so many thoughts running though my mind on this idea, but i will not preach... though it will be a good message someday...

hard to believe that this school year is all but 2 days over... PTL that next year i know what I am doing again... it is weird to live on a year by year process, but at least I know for now...

my little guy turned 3 on father's day (17th) and i am hoping to see him next week... crazy...

i guess there is not a lot going on in my head (leave it alone) right now, but i did want to update so that if there are people who actually read this blog, they will not think i am dead... things are goodish and will keep moving whether i choose to move, love, or sit still... so as always and as we all do, I have a choice with how I want to live the life that God has given me/us... anywho...

can't wait for...