mental note... next post is about psalm 127:1... in that post i will share about how God spoke to me about direction...
on to tonights thoughts... if you don't like serious posts i don't apologize... this is what God is bringing me through so this is what i share...
lately i have been experiencing and believing in the authority that God has equipped me with for a while now... so now that i choose to accept this gift and walk in it the opportunities to share with people have been plentiful... i feel so useful for the first time in a while... it is cool... yet the battle rages on... but this week it is different... usually i get pretty bombarded with a lot of heavy stuff and it is intense... in the past 24 hours i have had two insignificant things happen that really opened up some emotions of being upset and offended... for those who have been under the teaching of john bevere's "bait of satan" you know how nasty offence can be and how big the wedges it can cause... the things that set me off were so silly though... first, i was with some friends and another friend called and they spoke with 2 others and not me and that go me so upset... the thing is that i spoke with this person over msn so i should not have been upset in the first place and if i didn't it is still nothing to get upset over... so subtle... the second instance was while i was picking songs to lead worship another person whom i was speaking with suggested picking songs that were familiar... that got under my skin so badly it is ridiculous... i know what they meant, but i took it as "you have done a bad job picking songs in the past, so please do better"... so subtle...
even today i am just feeling overwhelmed a bit which is odd... instead of being totally crushed with another nasty blow, i just feel held down a bit... it is almost like the enemy knows the ground that i am taking back in my life and is subtly annoying me to hold me down a bit... so annoying... frig...
but the joy is this... the saints are surrounding me and God has not stopped being there... sounds so cliche, but is so true... when i am weak, He is strong and that is all i have to rely on...
not a real earth shaking post, but it is honest and that is what i wanted to be tonight... the enemy is sneaky and will do the little things that will eventually try to destroy us... great news is that he has no authority for those who are in Christ so i will not be destroyed... heck, i may even pull through... Praise God...
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by the way... something else that God revealed to me was that i put too much weight in friends sometimes... humbling isn't bad eh?
It's not about you. (It's not about me either...) It's all about Him. God made you and He loves you and the rest of the world can suck an egg (a chocolate egg). You need to believe in you, but you need to place your trust in Jesus first. Believe in Him. He died for you, remember? Turn your eyes toward Jesus...and the things of earth will grow strangely dim. Fill your eyes and ears and heart with the things of God and nothing else will matter. God has GREAT things for you Scottie, never doubt that. Why else would the enemy even bother with you. You are a threat to the kingdom of darkness. Put on your armour and fight the lies. You go, ugly girl!
thanks steph (not neves)... i appreciate your moment of weakness... keep it up, but don't let it get to my head...
He He.....I now know what subtle means. (evil laugh)
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