okay, todays post will not be a day of praise, but who knows, maybe i will find a praise as i type this out... that type of stuff is kind of cool...
so todays post will be called "How Stephanie Fitzsimmons Tried to Kill Me."
due to my phenonmenal ability to gab i missed the boat off of white head today the first time so i had to spend another hour and a half at the school... didn't seem to bad until i offered to help stephanie with some of the odd jobs/spring cleaning she was doing in her class... the first job was to clean out two red bottles of paint so that we could put pink (steph's fave color) paint in them... so i did and as is the case most times when i play with paint, my hands ened up dirty... no prob i thought... then my next job to do was to sort through some construction paper and put them in very percise piles... yet as i was separating them i had to moisten my fingers so instintively i licked them... paint does not taste good incase anyone was wondering... now she claims that it was non-toxic, but i just wanted to say that if i do not post within the next week, kirk perry has the right to pronounce me... well you know what...
hopefully my next post i will be able to tell you all about the tournament this weekend and how we came in better than friggin' 4th place this year...
peace,
~scotland~
Wednesday, March 28, 2007
Wednesday, March 21, 2007
40 Days of Praise: Day 29
Undone by MercyMe
To the cross I run
holding high my chains undone.
Now I am finally free,
free to be what I've become.
Undone.
This has a couple of different meanings for me but I think that somehow they go together. The other night in Bible study one of the questions posed was regarding plans that we had for our lives and how they compare to where we are and what our plans are now. To say the least, I am not where I planned on being in many areas of my life. This process has been tough on me to say the least. Through these times of molding and struggling and fighting and whatever emotion there is "I" have become undone and seemingly have lost control of my life. Now this is not to say that I cannot handle everyday stuff, but the Big Picture is not in my control anymore. Slowly, I think that is becoming okay with me. Slowly. Yet in this process of what seems to be a negative in becoming undone, the chains are coming undone as well. Chains of allowing opinions of others to hold me down, chains of buying into the lies that I am not good enough and trust me there are many other chains that are becoming undone and I suspect many more to come.
To the cross I run
holding high my chains undone.
Now I am finally free,
free to be what I've become.
Undone.
This has a couple of different meanings for me but I think that somehow they go together. The other night in Bible study one of the questions posed was regarding plans that we had for our lives and how they compare to where we are and what our plans are now. To say the least, I am not where I planned on being in many areas of my life. This process has been tough on me to say the least. Through these times of molding and struggling and fighting and whatever emotion there is "I" have become undone and seemingly have lost control of my life. Now this is not to say that I cannot handle everyday stuff, but the Big Picture is not in my control anymore. Slowly, I think that is becoming okay with me. Slowly. Yet in this process of what seems to be a negative in becoming undone, the chains are coming undone as well. Chains of allowing opinions of others to hold me down, chains of buying into the lies that I am not good enough and trust me there are many other chains that are becoming undone and I suspect many more to come.
For this unravelling of sorts, I am beginning to give God praise. Not totally there, but today I can give God praise for this. Gloria Dios.
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
40 Days of Praise: Day 28
Today's note of praise is simple.
Lord, I thank You for my young adult Bible study group, the study, the conversations and for what You are teaching me through these lessons. Awesome.
Thursday, March 01, 2007
40 Days of Praise: Day 27
Today's praise came in the form of an answer to yesterdays questions that i was having.
I had a meeting with an individual who wants me to work with a young person as a Big Brother type of role. The dilema for me is that instead of losing hours with Sid, I have gained hours. (some problem, eh?) So I have been wondering how I was ever going to fit a few extra hours in my schedule, but I am going to try. As our conversation concluded we were joking about how I am bouncing from place to place regarding work, Bible study, basketball, volleyball and other various activities and then she made a comment that God totally took and deposited into my innermost being. As we were leaving she off the cuff said, "you are needed here" regarding the busyness of working with special needs and possibly being a big brother, etc... Now I understand that what was said was said in jest, but it hit me in the heart. I am needed. Wow! I am not sure if that is more scary or encouraging, but man it felt good to hear.
So:
...and for the record, if you are reading this and are feeling useless and discouraged, God wants you to know that you are needed. He wants to take you, mold you and use you. Are you available? Think about it. God needs and wants to use you. Amazing.
I had a meeting with an individual who wants me to work with a young person as a Big Brother type of role. The dilema for me is that instead of losing hours with Sid, I have gained hours. (some problem, eh?) So I have been wondering how I was ever going to fit a few extra hours in my schedule, but I am going to try. As our conversation concluded we were joking about how I am bouncing from place to place regarding work, Bible study, basketball, volleyball and other various activities and then she made a comment that God totally took and deposited into my innermost being. As we were leaving she off the cuff said, "you are needed here" regarding the busyness of working with special needs and possibly being a big brother, etc... Now I understand that what was said was said in jest, but it hit me in the heart. I am needed. Wow! I am not sure if that is more scary or encouraging, but man it felt good to hear.
So:
God I thank You for Your word for me through this woman who may not have realized that she was giving it to me. I know that without you I am nothing, but with You there is purpose.
...and for the record, if you are reading this and are feeling useless and discouraged, God wants you to know that you are needed. He wants to take you, mold you and use you. Are you available? Think about it. God needs and wants to use you. Amazing.
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